Other Worlds

For whatever reason, during the early part of my pregnancies I escape into the worlds of my books - both old and new. It's a bit about just trying to keep my mind of how miserable I feel (no regrets about babies past present and future, I just don't like being miserable). It's a bit of just following the isolation I already surround myself with because of the pregnancy (it's as if my mind can only concentrate on one thing at a time, and when I'm pregnant... it's that) further - retreating not just from things outside of home but even in retreating within home. It's a bit about the comfort I have in retreating and the pleasure that I do still have the ability to be carried away by a story (when I'm not pregnant I have to be at a calm place in my life - i.e. babies have to be toddlers at least- in order to have the presence of brain to fully immerse myself into another world).

Anyway, point being, I've been reading a lot. Two books a day sometimes (that usually means I've missed a lot of details)... I should say I've been going THROUGH two books a day... but actually - I dunno - my mom has outdone herself picking library winners and I really have been actually READING the books. What a concept.

What I have found while reading my old books more carefully is that there are a lot of details I missed not just because I was skimming in my mind. I missed just a lot of subtleties just because I didn't pick up on them.

AND the most interesting was when we borrowed the newest book of a series I started in 6th or 7th grade?? Did my mom really let me read these at that age? I don't know exactly when - it was early. And no they aren't explicit in any way shape or form, but it's fascinating how clear I remember the first read of my favorites. Anyway, time hasn't passed for the characters and what I noticed was that I was still missing subtleties when reading this totally new book - and I think it's because my mind automatically saw the characters, READ the characters as I understood them way back then.

Just thought it was interesting.